" i once had a heart of gold. now, i'm only something to be taken care of. an obligation "
NAME;;
shredkit, shredpaw, SHREDFERN
[SH-REHD-FRRN]
NAME ORIGIN;;
shred - his long, sharp claws
fern - the pattern that marks his tail
RANK;;
elder
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AFFILIATION/RESIDENCE;;
thunderclan
BREED;;
bengal
GENDER/PRONOUNS;;
[cis] male, he/him/his
SEXUALITY;;
biromantic asexual
SIGNIFICANT OTHER;;
ashstream [DECEASED, mate]
RELATIONS;;
leafwatcher [ALIVE, offspring, seasalt]
chipmunkchatter [ALIVE, adoptive sister, mompaws]
leopardpaw [ALIVE, friend, radler57]
PHYSICAL DESCRIPTION;;
shredfern has always had a large, muscular figure that towered over most cats and intimidated some, his piercing copper eyes didn't help much either. he is an older cat, thus the many scars criss-crossing his back and flanks. at one point in time, there might have been light and energy in him, but now his shoulders and head droop, his eyes are dim and dull, and the mouth that once constantly head traces of a grin now seems to be pulled into a permanent frown. his fur is grey with darker bengal spots, ear tips, and tail tips. his paw pads and nose are a pale pink colour, and his teeth are beginning to yellow and become uneven. he is in poor health and is often coughing or resting.
PERSONALITY/TRAITS;;
QUIET + GENTLE + LONESOME + EXHAUSTED
quiet + making little or no noise; hushed or noiseless
shredfern hardly speaks unless previously spoken to, though he can hold a conversation just fine.
gentle + mild in temperament or behavior; kind or tender
shredfern has always been a kind, giving soul. even in old age, when one believe they turn crotchety and bitter, he retains his soft behaviour.
lonesome + solitary or lonely
ever since shredfern lost his mate, ashstream, and his only son became a warrior, he get lonelier and lonelier everyday. it's gotten to the point that it has become habit to isolate himself from others, even his denmates.
exhausted + drained of one's physical or mental resources; very tired; completely used up
shredfern is old now, and sick. he's lived his entire life with a heart of gold and helping others, but has since deteriorated into a sick old elder who is nothing more than another mouth to feed and a liability. at least in his mind.
DISORDER[S]/DISABILITY[IES];;
mild depression
HISTORY;;
at a young age, shredfern was a bouncing, bubbly kit. he had always been positive and welcoming, and never minding consoling clanmates or helping everyone else but himself. most of the time, he'd be too happy to think about his growing problems anyways. he had kept this persona for the longest time, throughout his apprenticeship and most of his warrior career. he even attracted a sweet molly, ashstream, from within his own clan. they were happy, and had one kit together. leafkit. now known as leafwatcher. unfortunately, ashstream died in the flooding of the caves, leaving shredfern as a single father. he was fine with that. at first. but as leafwatcher grew up and became more independent, shredfern developed anxiety and depression, which is also part of the reason he is ill so often nowadays.