" it isn't like it matters. nothing matters. i certainly don't "
NAME;;
marshkit, marshpaw, MARSHFUR
[MAR-SH-FRR]
NAME ORIGIN;;
marsh - her pelt resembles the colour of the marshes
fur - how sleek and well-kept her fur is
RANK;;
senior warrior
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AFFILIATION/RESIDENCE;;
shadowclan
BREED;;
bengal
GENDER/PRONOUNS;;
[trans] female, she/her
SEXUALITY;;
demiromantic demisexual
SIGNIFICANT OTHER;;
N/A
RELATIONS;;
daydream [ALIVE, friend, king kaleb!]
hazelpaw [DECEASED, sister]
PHYSICAL DESCRIPTION;;
slim, graceful, and dainty are just a few words to describe marshfur, with delicate looking, long, almond coloured limbs generously spotted in choclate bengal markings. she has a few scars, but not many. most of her fur has already grown over them. her eyes are a sharp, vibrant amber colour that takes on a dull tone most of the time. her ears are larger than average and her tail is a bit longer than most. the tip of her tail is a very, very dark brown that matches her ear tips and toe tips. her paw pads and nose are a dark greyish pink colour with some darker spots.
PERSONALITY/TRAITS;;
SILENT + DISTANT + MONOTONE + FINICKY
silent + not speaking, not expressed aloud; inaudible or soundless
it is difficult for marshfur to speak for herself without first being spoken to. she often doesn't speak out of fear and discomfort of speaking.
distant + far away in space or time, not intimate; cool or reserved
marshfur often finds herself dissociating when faced with other cats, or just outright ignoring them. she keeps herself far away from others and struggles to create/keep close relationships.
monotone + unchanging in pitch; without intonation or expressiveness
it isn't that marshfur doesn't feel anything, it's more or less that she feels to much. because of her sensitivity, she chooses not to voice her feelings anymore, and is often mistaken as cruel and unfeeling because of this.
finicky + fussy about one's needs or requirements
marshfur as always had a maternal instinct, and even in her busted mindset, she struggles not to worry for others. of course, she never voices it, but occasionally she will furrow her brow and harshly offer some well-meaning advice.
DISORDER[S]/DISABILITY[IES];;
major depression
suicidal thoughts/tendencies
anxiety
HISTORY;;
for the first few seasons of her life, marshfur grew up relatively average. loving mother and father, etc. but, she lost her parents mid-way through her apprenticeship. she was broken up for the longest time and suffered many periods of depression and growing suicidal thoughts before she grew out of it. she grew up with her younger sibling, hazelpaw, and relied on her for a lot of things. after she lost her in the flooding of the caves, marshfur was shattered. now she is anxious all the time, nightmares plague her dreams, and she suffers many mental issues other than depression and suicidal thoughts.